The only people that shouldn’t reblog this are rapists or abusers
one third of me: I want a relationship so much, relationships are so cute
one third of me: sex sex sex I want sex fuck relationships lets be slutty
one third of me: fuck everyone I hate people
It really does scare to to think about the future. Within the next year I have to decided what I want to do with my life and I have to decided if I am going to stop playing the game I love so very much. This scares me. I know either way I am going to have regrets as much as I don’t want to.
But to pick what is best for me at this part is hard, because I have no idea what that is. People assume I have everything in order, that is what is funny. I do well in school, I keep my emotions put together for the most part, but it’s all a show, and people just laugh well I say that. But it’s the truth. I know people say that at 21 your not supposed to know what to do, but at this point I really need to know.
I’ve sacrificed so much for this journey with soccer. I love the game, but it have missed out on so many other overt unities that have come up due to the time commitment. I want to be independent, I want to work and raise some money so I don’t have to worry about my parents money, but I don’t have time… Not with soccer. I barley have time for myself anymore. I spent half of the term wanting to cry because I didn’t have enough time to commit myself to fully diving into the work that was given to me and that reflected in my grades, b+ and b-. The only way I got through it was talking to Joe and us just being able to lean on each other because we are both expire ding this at the same time. I know it will get better now that I have more time but I’m also taking another class that I didn’t take last quarter. I’m going to be so tired, but I have to keep it together.
I really just need to talk it through with someone, anyone really. But I know I am the one that needs to figure this out. I just don’t know….
me: wow i have so much work to do
me: *goes on tumblr*
me: *watches a movie*
me: *reads a novel*
me: *takes a nap*
me: *climbs a mountain*
me: *backpacks through europe*
me: why am i not getting anything done
Wow this is so me right now! and its finals week. i could easily write 6-8 pages on anything else besides theory.